Thursday, June 14, 2012

Lots of Jagged Rocks Thrown into One Small Space


When I did a project much like Sidewalks several years ago, I remember going home and telling my mom excitedly, “I learned to do conflict!” (Her first reaction was confusion- I probably should have said ‘conflict resolution’.) I was excited because I learned that conflict, when done well, brings deep intimacy in friendships.

Something mysterious happens when you’ve hurt someone and you go to them in humility (or embarrassment!), choking out that scary admission: “I was wrong.” Or when you’re the one who’s been hurt and you’re gracious and honest.  God can get at those exposed places. That sort of friendship was unlike anything my college-student self had before experienced. So I was eager to share how I had learned about conflict.

Other recent Sidewalks alumni held similar fervor. They enthusiastically told members of our team, “You’re doing Sidewalks? Awesome! You’re going to do conflict!!”  So our group approached this hyped-up but rather scary idea of conflict together. Imagine day three of Orientation: as we waited to hear out speaker, Alison,  I could almost hear the unspoken objections. Doesn’t conflict mean you’re doing something wrong? Isn’t that the opposite of Christian community? It’s much better to be polite and quiet, right?

But Alison reassured us, “It isn’t about conflict, really. It’s about becoming.” We’re all stuck in a rock tumbler this summer. And our sharp edges are going to be rubbing against each other’s sharp edges. That’s good news! God’s inviting us to let our gritty selves be exposed so he can deal with us. Together.

Would you take a minute now to pray for our rock tumbler community? We’ve jumped in, but we’re not yet letting each other see our gritty-sharp edges. That’s going to take some nerve. Praise God.

3 comments:

  1. Hey guys!

    Oh man, I remember when started to discuss conflict because I wasn't too keen on doing conflict. As I look back on it I can definitely say the Lord opened my mind and heart to the right way of going about conflict. My prayers are with you all =)

    *A special shout out to Amy, Rob, and Josh! Woohoo York College... even though I don't go there anymore, ha

    -Emmy

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  2. If this were Facebook, I'd like this post.

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  3. Yay conflict! That was definitely the hardest part about Sidewalks for me, but I learned a lot and I'm still learning. Two nights ago I had a conversation that lasted until 7am Sunday morning--how good! I was able to bring up some conflict and even though it's not resolved yet, it was a really good start. I know it takes courage to be vulnerable, especially in front of the whole group, but it's worth it! I'll be praying for you guys : )

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